As I write, Vivi is sitting in her rocking chair in the living room sucking her thumb. Next to her, Jude is sleepily rocking in the swing. A CD of Native American chants is blasting from the stereo and my husband is dancing in front of both girls trying to make them laugh. (It's starting to work.) I am a few feet away at the computer with Eliya quietly nursing. It is both chaotic and peaceful at the same time. I love when life can be a complete spectrum of emotion in one singular moment. Right now, my life is very, very good.